I noticed the pattern on the charred stucco of the wall and tore a piece of paper from my sketchbook and began to rub the charcoal on the paper against the charred and broken back porch.This allowed me to enter a sort of meditative state as I was able to physically embody much of what I was feeling in active motion. Motion aware and controlled enough to not rip the paper, but open enough to allow the damage to make its mark.

All of the drawings were created in Altadena between Fairoaks and Hill Street, North of New York Drive from February to July of 2025. Each piece is made using reclaimed charcoal and the rubble of Altadena. By July most of the debris had been cleared by Americorps making these 30 drawings a time capsule of the in between. From evacuating to getting a call that the house was gone, to digging through the rubble to then not being able to find a trace of my things, my life, or myself anywhere on the property. 

While each individual piece contains different marks fueled by different emotions in different physical contexts, the whole body of work becomes a grief meditation.